come-apart

why does a breakdown always seem to be necessary in order for a breakthrough to occur??

well, no matter....now. mine has occured and it has cleared some of the fog from my thoughts.

today, i am grateful for my loving husband, and his willingness to wade through these storms with me, even when it soaks him to the skin. and i treasure his tenacity to slog through the mire until, together, we reach the core issue that's driving my need.

above all, i bask in the provision of my precious Father, who ever knew my beginning, my end and my meantime, and is with me in them all.

on a lighter note- i completed my first (or one of my firsts, i can't remember, lol) pinterest project. appropriate for this week :)

inLove,
theFarmer'swife

time passes

it is only when i look outside the boundaries of my own lovingly (and sometimes painstakingly) crafted garden that it suddenly seems clumsy and sparse- when before it may have seemed fledgling, but it was all the more precious for the uncertain though enthusiastic efforts (and surprisingly pleasant results!).

i find when i am most fragile, i make a lot of comparisons....or perhaps it is when i make a lot of comparisons that i find myself most fragile.

the Farmer is particularly protective of me against this most harsh practice (or is it a compulsion?) of mine. he is truly a gift of grace and love in my life. Father was most wise in His choice for me, knowing that when i seek to please my sweet husband, and reach farther into what i too know is right for me, i am also aligning my heart with Father's deepest desires for me. in short, they double-team my tentative heart.

in this stormy season, i am so grateful for the boat that carries me, and for the great Keeper of the sea.

inLove,
theFarmer'swife

or i'll never get started....

so here i am, shooting off my first post, with exactly 12 minutes to do it!

today i am dreaming of things i could create- beautiful things, delicate things, colorful things....possibly even for profit, so i can make even more beautiful, delicate and colorful things!

right now i'm wondering if i have the time to edit this post so it too will be beautiful, delicate and colorful....probably not.

i will mention as a completely unrelated side note that i am not myself lately. something is shifting inside me, has been for awhile....it's not a feeling as if i am losing myself, but instead that i am finding myself- just, slowly....VERY slowly. it's excruciating, and i feel for my sweet husband (the Farmer himself) as he waits so patiently- as if he's not even waiting at all- sometimes absorbing blows i didn't mean to throw. this is such new terrain for me, finding myself- and as if i have unlimited resources...of course, i DO- i have just never lived in accordance with that fact. maybe that's the biggest change of all that's going on inside me right now.

well, i have 6 minutes left, but i think i'll leave it til next time. yay for finally beginning.

inLove,
theFarmer'swife