many times today i've almost been overcome with tears....grateful, ever so grateful, tears.
maybe it's the natural cadence of my eddying journey with my precious God, but i am overcome with the sense that the more He gifts me with, the more keenly aware i am of the unending blessings of the shelter of His wings.
i feel undeserving, by far. but more than that i am, unquestioningly, in awe of His sweet, sweet grace.
you'd think, after so many years, it'd get old.
it doesn't.
sitting here, writing, with a glass of good red wine in front of me and my kittycat at my feet, after spending the night shopping with my best friend, then cooking a late dinner to the tunes of Van Morrison, Etta James, Ray Charles, Cat Stevens, Norah Jones, Frank Sinatra and others, anticipating the near arrival of my dear husband- life just couldn't be better.
it truly is the simple things that bring the purest joy in life.
hope you're finding yours!
inLove,
theFarmer'swife
ps. if you're curious, this is what i made for dinner tonight- it's one of the Farmer's favorites! ;)
http://www.rookie-cookie.com/2008/04/penne-with-chicken-sun-dried-tomatoes.html
Tuesday, February 7, 2012
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
behold, how brightly breaks the morning ~James Kenney
how appropriate that the Farmer's wife should be writing to you from none other than the annual organic farmers conference...or from near it, anyway, lol, as spouses are not allowed to join their loves in their lodging, unless they join them for the entire conference (for a hefty fee, of course). word to the CCOF- allow accommodations for all the Farmer's wives out there!!! we don't want to spend four days away from our sweet hubbies (at least THIS one doesn't, lol!)!! ;P
anyway....as you might have noticed i am in much higher spirits! :) i can't say quite why, though i'm sure my aforementioned 'breakdown' helped, lol. it could be that i am being treated by my loving husband to a long weekend in beautiful Monterey in one of the most charming B&B's ever! (Gosby House Inn if you're ever in the area!) not to mention the massage and facial i will receive right here in our room tomorrow afternoon! this is after i spend the day scoping out the area's many consignment shops and boutiques for suits and other business wear for my NEW JOB!!! :D
yes, folks- i finally have a new job!! so ok, for those of you that only know me through this blog, you don't quite know the significance, but suffice to say this is a L-O-N-G time coming, lol. granted, it is in *perfect* timing...as are all great blessings! and i am so excited (and honestly quite scared, lol) to embark on this new adventure! so this is a sort of "last hoorah" weekend, as it will take much more focus (but will also bring SO many more opportunities!) than my current job.
i will also say that i have been clearly reminded that as an ambassador of the only lasting Kingdom, i am not to concern myself with how others treat me- but instead how i absorb their metaphorical punches and continue to love them unconditionally- the way my precious Father loves me. i am surprisingly (or not? lol) immature in this area. (this is just another reason- of so many reasons!!- of why i am SO appreciative of my sweet husband's unending grace for me.)
also, i have just plain made some good headway in some personal goals (and with the new job, now have the resources to pursue some other very important personal goals).i hate to be the type of person that is so effected by their circumstances- yes, i know that's why we call ourselves human ;) but my security lies with something so much greater than my circumstances (which we all know are ever changing)....maybe it's just because whether or not i'm on top of my stuff is a direct reflection of my state of mind....? i dunno, i think either way- my trust in my ever-providing never-changing loving Father could use a growth spurt....i should probably be careful for what i wish for, huh? nah, i'm well aware He'll stretch me at His leisure, and not my own ;)
well, friends- time for a bite! until next time!
inLove,
theFarmer'swife
anyway....as you might have noticed i am in much higher spirits! :) i can't say quite why, though i'm sure my aforementioned 'breakdown' helped, lol. it could be that i am being treated by my loving husband to a long weekend in beautiful Monterey in one of the most charming B&B's ever! (Gosby House Inn if you're ever in the area!) not to mention the massage and facial i will receive right here in our room tomorrow afternoon! this is after i spend the day scoping out the area's many consignment shops and boutiques for suits and other business wear for my NEW JOB!!! :D
yes, folks- i finally have a new job!! so ok, for those of you that only know me through this blog, you don't quite know the significance, but suffice to say this is a L-O-N-G time coming, lol. granted, it is in *perfect* timing...as are all great blessings! and i am so excited (and honestly quite scared, lol) to embark on this new adventure! so this is a sort of "last hoorah" weekend, as it will take much more focus (but will also bring SO many more opportunities!) than my current job.
i will also say that i have been clearly reminded that as an ambassador of the only lasting Kingdom, i am not to concern myself with how others treat me- but instead how i absorb their metaphorical punches and continue to love them unconditionally- the way my precious Father loves me. i am surprisingly (or not? lol) immature in this area. (this is just another reason- of so many reasons!!- of why i am SO appreciative of my sweet husband's unending grace for me.)
also, i have just plain made some good headway in some personal goals (and with the new job, now have the resources to pursue some other very important personal goals).i hate to be the type of person that is so effected by their circumstances- yes, i know that's why we call ourselves human ;) but my security lies with something so much greater than my circumstances (which we all know are ever changing)....maybe it's just because whether or not i'm on top of my stuff is a direct reflection of my state of mind....? i dunno, i think either way- my trust in my ever-providing never-changing loving Father could use a growth spurt....i should probably be careful for what i wish for, huh? nah, i'm well aware He'll stretch me at His leisure, and not my own ;)
well, friends- time for a bite! until next time!
inLove,
theFarmer'swife
Monday, January 23, 2012
come-apart
why does a breakdown always seem to be necessary in order for a breakthrough to occur??
well, no matter....now. mine has occured and it has cleared some of the fog from my thoughts.
today, i am grateful for my loving husband, and his willingness to wade through these storms with me, even when it soaks him to the skin. and i treasure his tenacity to slog through the mire until, together, we reach the core issue that's driving my need.
above all, i bask in the provision of my precious Father, who ever knew my beginning, my end and my meantime, and is with me in them all.
on a lighter note- i completed my first (or one of my firsts, i can't remember, lol) pinterest project. appropriate for this week :)
inLove,
theFarmer'swife
well, no matter....now. mine has occured and it has cleared some of the fog from my thoughts.
today, i am grateful for my loving husband, and his willingness to wade through these storms with me, even when it soaks him to the skin. and i treasure his tenacity to slog through the mire until, together, we reach the core issue that's driving my need.
above all, i bask in the provision of my precious Father, who ever knew my beginning, my end and my meantime, and is with me in them all.
on a lighter note- i completed my first (or one of my firsts, i can't remember, lol) pinterest project. appropriate for this week :)
theFarmer'swife
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
time passes
it is only when i look outside the boundaries of my own lovingly (and sometimes painstakingly) crafted garden that it suddenly seems clumsy and sparse- when before it may have seemed fledgling, but it was all the more precious for the uncertain though enthusiastic efforts (and surprisingly pleasant results!).
i find when i am most fragile, i make a lot of comparisons....or perhaps it is when i make a lot of comparisons that i find myself most fragile.
the Farmer is particularly protective of me against this most harsh practice (or is it a compulsion?) of mine. he is truly a gift of grace and love in my life. Father was most wise in His choice for me, knowing that when i seek to please my sweet husband, and reach farther into what i too know is right for me, i am also aligning my heart with Father's deepest desires for me. in short, they double-team my tentative heart.
in this stormy season, i am so grateful for the boat that carries me, and for the great Keeper of the sea.
inLove,
theFarmer'swife
i find when i am most fragile, i make a lot of comparisons....or perhaps it is when i make a lot of comparisons that i find myself most fragile.
the Farmer is particularly protective of me against this most harsh practice (or is it a compulsion?) of mine. he is truly a gift of grace and love in my life. Father was most wise in His choice for me, knowing that when i seek to please my sweet husband, and reach farther into what i too know is right for me, i am also aligning my heart with Father's deepest desires for me. in short, they double-team my tentative heart.
in this stormy season, i am so grateful for the boat that carries me, and for the great Keeper of the sea.
inLove,
theFarmer'swife
Wednesday, January 4, 2012
or i'll never get started....
so here i am, shooting off my first post, with exactly 12 minutes to do it!
today i am dreaming of things i could create- beautiful things, delicate things, colorful things....possibly even for profit, so i can make even more beautiful, delicate and colorful things!
right now i'm wondering if i have the time to edit this post so it too will be beautiful, delicate and colorful....probably not.
i will mention as a completely unrelated side note that i am not myself lately. something is shifting inside me, has been for awhile....it's not a feeling as if i am losing myself, but instead that i am finding myself- just, slowly....VERY slowly. it's excruciating, and i feel for my sweet husband (the Farmer himself) as he waits so patiently- as if he's not even waiting at all- sometimes absorbing blows i didn't mean to throw. this is such new terrain for me, finding myself- and as if i have unlimited resources...of course, i DO- i have just never lived in accordance with that fact. maybe that's the biggest change of all that's going on inside me right now.
well, i have 6 minutes left, but i think i'll leave it til next time. yay for finally beginning.
inLove,
theFarmer'swife
today i am dreaming of things i could create- beautiful things, delicate things, colorful things....possibly even for profit, so i can make even more beautiful, delicate and colorful things!
right now i'm wondering if i have the time to edit this post so it too will be beautiful, delicate and colorful....probably not.
i will mention as a completely unrelated side note that i am not myself lately. something is shifting inside me, has been for awhile....it's not a feeling as if i am losing myself, but instead that i am finding myself- just, slowly....VERY slowly. it's excruciating, and i feel for my sweet husband (the Farmer himself) as he waits so patiently- as if he's not even waiting at all- sometimes absorbing blows i didn't mean to throw. this is such new terrain for me, finding myself- and as if i have unlimited resources...of course, i DO- i have just never lived in accordance with that fact. maybe that's the biggest change of all that's going on inside me right now.
well, i have 6 minutes left, but i think i'll leave it til next time. yay for finally beginning.
inLove,
theFarmer'swife
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